I am currently reading – The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Joseph Murphy
Here is an excerpt from the book-
A young man asked Socrates how he could get wisdom. Socrates replied, “Come with me”. He took the lad to a river, pushed the boy’s head under the water, held it there until the boy was gasping for air, then relaxed and released his head. When the boy regained his composure, he asked him, “What did you desire most when you were under water?”
“I wanted air,” said the boy.
Socrates said to him,”When you want wisdom as much as you wanted air when you were immersed in the water, you will receive it.”
When I read this it resonated strongly with me. These past few years my husband and I have experienced some medical challenges. It has brought us closer and made our marriage stronger. My husband is a wonderful man. He took care of me and nurtured me through it all. He called me beautiful even when I looked and felt like crap. He has this incredible ability to stay calm and peaceful no matter what. The more frustrated and angry I got at our situation, the more patient, kind, understanding and loving he got towards me. Early this year we went through a medical complication which literally affected all areas of my life. It affected my husband too. It shook me to see him overcome by emotion and hurting.
Those few months were grueling. We got through it by supporting and loving each other. With the grace of God, I am healed although I am still dealing with some left over side affects.
But I have been trying to make sense of everything. The more I tried, I felt more sad and lost. I felt like the boy in the story with my head under water. I read book after book on coping with trauma and overcoming difficulties. Some of it has helped me briefly. I still want all the things a person craves for- children, financial freedom, good health and good relationships with family, friends and at work. But I have stopped chasing those things.
What I need at this time is to be at peace with myself. I need wisdom like the boy in the story. I would like to think the worst is behind us. Perhaps it is. But for now I continue to seek and pray for Wisdom.
“Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” Psalm 25:4-5